I used to think that I’m a person of great versatility. A personality that’s fluid, adaptive and maybe even unpredictable.

I do realize that I like changes – for the better. I’m not too uncomfortable with the unfamiliar, and I look forward to the bigger and brighter future if that means leaving my comfort zone.

However when it comes to matters of the heart, is change really good?

I found myself returning to the same people who have been there for me through the years, my friends, and of course the people who will never leave – my family.

When do I decide to establish my feelings and take things seriously?

If stability in the dating scene is as erratic as the weather in Guyana, then I’d rather leave it and stop letting myself through all that emotional rollercoaster. Sometimes, enough is enough and nothing is more attractive and wonderful as inner peace.

Unfortunately, generally in life, the only constant is change…and a heartfelt chat with a long time friend of mine last night only reinforced that fact, in addition to many harsh realities we both faced.

Being both a realist and a dreamer that I am, I don’t wish to say “wake me up when I finally find my Prince Charming”.

No matter how painful or tedious the process may be, I want to be wide awake through it all. As the people around me gets hitched/ engaged/ married, all I want is to meet someone whom I can trust, loves me for who I am and that we are able to give each other genuine happiness.

I know. It’s a lot to ask for.

And I don’t know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this.
All I know is you came to me when I was at my lowest.
You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I owe my life to you.
Before the life of me, I don’t see why you don’t see like I do.